Back in the New Year!

Dax is doing another 30 day M.A.P. Fatloss program and I am in to try again.  Last time I got injured and sucked into apathy and sadness.  Not this time around.  I'm looking forward to rapidly losing the fat that I have put on over the last six months.  My goal is to lose at least 10 lbs this month.  Here goes everything!

Family trips

Clearly I need to stop going on them.  I end up eating crap food that is not good for me, feeling terrible and failing miserably.  I cannot wait to get past this triathalon on Saturday and just focus on strength and running.

Sabotage

So I walked past the ice cream twice yesterday.  I stopped both times.  I did not buy my very favorite ice cream in the whole wide world.  It's Tillamook Mudslide.  Anyway, I didn't do it.  I'm not sure if it was because it was almost $6 for that container, or because I legitimately knew I didn't need to have it in the house.  When I have Mudslide in the house, I eat it.  All of it.  Within a day or two.  So yay me, no Mudslide!

I went to the store with a list.  A plan to have a very healthy dinner of Fish Tacos.  I bought the things on my list and also bought a Dijourno Pizza and some Vanilla ice cream to go with the apples for the Apple crisp.  The very healthy whole foods crisp, and I even bought the all natural ingredients ice cream.  I ended up eating pizza for lunch and vanilla ice cream with rhubarb sauce for dinner.   The fish tacos didn't happen.  The good news is that I have a solid plan for dinner tonight and I have no more money to go to the store.

Amazingly my weight was down by 1.5lbs today, but one could argue that it was all just water weight anyway.

This morning: 196lbs

Breakfast: 2 eggs w/ swiss chard, pico sauce and queso fresco, coffee w/almond milk
snack: almonds
lunch:  big giant salad, tangelo
snack: cucumbers w/hummus
dinner: Fish Tacos, apple crisp w/vanilla ice cream

Because I have to have my sweet stuff or there will be more sabotage.

Still learning.

I have been actively trying to lose weight since 2005.  I have tried a few fad diets, weight watchers, etc.  I have lost the same 25 lbs and regained them time and time again.  It wasn't until this year that the light clicked on for me.  I cannot lose the weight and keep it off if I continue to eat food that is bad for me.

I truly believed that if I just exercised enough, I could eat whatever I wanted.  Not true.  Even at the height of marathon training, I did not lose a pound.  As soon as I stopped running 30+ miles a week, teaching 3 jazz classes a week and not doing my 3 strength training days a week, I started to gain.  I was exhausted.

So now, here I am.  7lbs heavier than what I was on January 1 of this year.  I have learned alot from Dax Moy, Tosca Reno and Jillian Michaels.  I know now that I have to stop eating food that isn't food.  It's really my Achilles heel in it all, because I do love to exercise.

So here it stops.  I draw the line.  I am NOT going to weigh 200lbs ever again.  I am currently 197 lbs and not ok with it.  In fact I'm depressed and saddened that I am where I am. This is my rock bottom.

I have not given up.

The 30th day has come and gone and unfortunately due to a back injury I had to step off the wagon. I have been down for over a week now. The good news is that I am not giving up. I am going to change the name of the blog and continue on my weight loss journey because it's not over until I reach my goal or the fat lady sings and the fat lady is not going to be me.

Yesterday was the first day I tried any sort of exercise and I'm full on sore. All I did was a modified version of the meltdown and went on a short walk. I may try to do a short workout again today but I do not want to push it as the back is complaining a bit this morning. I am sticking to the ED diet at least 90% of the time. I've added back in my beloved coffee and I had a small sandwich thin at dinner last night. No major bad side effects from it. For the most part I want to continue to avoid gluten, dairy, alcohol, processed foods and sugar. I gave up Pop earlier this year and have no intention of going back to that. I love coffee though and have been enjoying my cup in the morning.

Currently I am not down on the scale at all. I will measure to compare to the beginning and take pictures today after the kids get up.

So here's to me and never giving up.

Day 13, 14, and 15

I don't like weekends. My husband is home and throws me off. He's just in the way. Not that I don't love and appreciate him, but he is making my workouts very difficult. I was only able to get 2 of them in in the last 3 days. I feel lazy and sluglike.

I managed to stay on the eating plan over the weekend with only a couple of slips. Given that it was a holiday, I'll be proud of that.

As of today I'm down 2.4 lbs but numerous people have commented that it looks like I'm losing. My jeans are practically falling off, so that helps too.

Day 12 I fought off a chocolate craving!

This is something I've never been able to do. Talking myself down from chocolate just didn't happen. This time, I did it.

It hit in the early afternoon just after lunch. I decided that instead of giving in to it, I'd go do my workout and then the dishes. If it was still there I'd possibly do something about it. It wasn't. I had no desire after the workout. Just amazing. So from now on, when craving chocolate, I'll just do 10-15 minutes of exercise.

We also ate out yesterday, and that is never easy. I managed to get myself a small steak with only mushrooms and had extra veggies instead of potatoes, so steak and broccoli. It didn't look like much, but it was delicious and it filled me up. It was smaller than my children's meals, and for only around 300 calories. I did eat some nuts later when we got home, but hey, I've stayed on plan! This is a first. I seem to struggle with food above all else. Only one more day of low carb and I get to eat some fruits again. Soooo looking forward to tomorrow!

Day 11 Feeling much better.

Amazing what a difference eating fruits and other yummy carbohydrates can make. Sleep helps a lot as well.

I was able to complete the Pyramid before breakfast this morning. This is something I had not been doing. After reading on Dax Moy's network that it burns more fat, I decided to try it. It was not easy but it was doable. Every day I am getting stronger and able to get a bit further into the Pyramid workout within the 20 minutes. Today I got down up and over and back down to 3x. It feels really good.

I can do this!

Today is actually Day 10

That means only 20 more days to go! Oh how the attitude has improved. I forced myself to do the Meltdown this morning and I'm now completely worn out, but I do feel better. I'm going to get through at least two more workouts and maybe work on some Jazz routines for cardio. I will see how I am feeling later.

The carbs have been added back in and I can tell. My body is warm and fuzzy and happy. Or maybe that is the lack of sleep. I also bought a multi-vitamin at the store yesterday. I think that may be helping as well. Who knows. It's just nice to feel a bit better even if I am over tired.

Day 9 and up 3 lbs!

This sucks! I have been so very very good and feeling so very very awful and now I want to cry. Yesterday was a good day as I was so looking forward to today. I missed the cardio workout, but managed to get some walking in. It probably wasn't enough though. It's so hard to work like this and be so tired and have my body backfire on me. :(

Just Miserable

Here is where I will whine because I do not want to whine anywhere that isn't my space. This is mine. I hurt. My body just aches all over again. I'm tired and I feel like my blood sugar is incredibly low. I'm completely useless to my family as I'm unable to even fold the laundry. I am praying to God I can get through one more day with the low carb. I'm very light headed and disoriented still and I have one more workout to get in today. Just ugh.

This is going to be worth it, right?

Day 7 Change up!

So today there were some new things in the challenge. The Pyramid workout really kicked my butt and added in with the change in diet, there was just not much energy to be had today. It's worth it though. Just a few days like this and the fat will melt.

I managed to get all four workouts in today. First time I've done that since last Thursday. It's been a rough go over the weekend. I've come out the other side though and am ready to move on to the next few days. Really really looking forward to Wednesday!

Day 6

Back on track! It's amazing how a bad day can throw me off. I know how to manage this and sometimes I have to remind myself. Stop the downward spiral and move on. It's never too late to start over. My attitude is improved and I am in control.

I'm not feeling any muscle soreness anymore. I think that could be coming back though. Looks like a changeup is on the horizon!

Day 5

Set back. Big one. Yesterday was not good. I didn't get my workouts in and the whole day was just a whirlwind. I'm back up to just a 1lb loss. Today will be a better day.

Day 4. Is it really only day 4?

I've had to force myself into the last two workouts of the day. I did ICP finally and still have the Power Circuit to go. It's getting easier and the muscle pain is starting to subside. I taught a jazz class today and holy God it was hard doing those plies.

Elimination Diet is a struggle. I have the strongest sweet tooth ever and I might have had a little taste of chocolate today. I was so frustrated with my math test coming up and it was a total stress reaction. I am going to have to find another way to cope with stress, especially with the kids out of school after tomorrow.

I'm almost made it through the first week though. I am down 4lbs and have lost 2 inches off my waist and one off my hips. This is not something that's happened in almost a year. It's motivating!

Day 3

So so tired again. I was going to attempt to go for a run today, and my legs just couldn't do it. I think they are about ready to give. I ended up walking instead. I am enjoying the workouts, as painful as they are. I LOVE that I am not spending hours working out. I am really really helping I don't wake up as sore tomorrow.

Day 2

I just finished my 4th workout. I am beat. Completely exhausted. I think part of it is definitely jet lag and that I didn't sleep enough over the weekend with both of my girls keeping me up until all hours of the night. That time difference really messes with me, even if it is only three hours.

I have a feeling I'm going to hurt tomorrow. Even more than today. I shall keep going though. I think a good night's sleep will do me a world of good.

MAP Day 1

Yesterday was interesting and definitely not the norm. I will start with the fact that I am very very sore. I work out pretty regularly and all of that did not prepare me for the soreness I woke up to this morning. It's a good sore, but definitely more than I have dealt with in a long time.

I was able to get almost all of the workouts in. The last one was kind of halfassed at 10:30 last night after arriving home from a 6 hour flight. I flew from Boston to Portland and over half my day was spent at an airport or on an airplane. Eating was the more difficult part as it's hard to find clean food in an airport and impossible on an airplane. I did it though. Breakfast was something they called eggs. I'm not sure they were really eggs. Most of my food consisted of fruit and veggies because there just wasn't anything else. I'm very very glad to be home today because I will have back my regular routines.

None of the workouts took very long but I sweated as much or more than I ever have in 30 minutes of running or 60 minutes of Jazzercise.

Here's to day 2!

Getting nervous!

I've downloaded everything, gone through all I need to, I think. I am prepared...again, I think. I am currently thousands of miles away from home and I fly back tomorrow. Somehow I'm going to work in the workouts. The eating part seems easy at the moment due to my lack of resources. I may change my mind after 5 1/2 hours on a plane though.

Here we go. The roller coaster is almost to the top of the big drop and there is no turning back now!

The good news!

I'm in to the Fat Loss M.A.P. Challenge. The bad news. I have to go beyond the pictures and post my current stats. This is definitely making me look at myself in the mirror and I have to say I am not liking what I see.

That's the point though right? It's to force me to look at myself and make me want to change that I will do everything necessary to make that happen. Well it's working. I'm ready. I want to take my body back. So here they are in the all their ugly glory. My stats

Current body weight in lbs.

188.4

Measurements:

Chest: 44 inches

Waist at bellybutton: 41 inches

Upper arm: 13 inches

Hips: 44 inches

Thigh: 4 inches above kneecap: 19.5 inches

8 inches above kneecap: 24 inches

It's a place to start. I am looking forward to see where I finish.

It all starts on Monday!

The Journey Begins

"I've just signed up for London Personal Trainer Dax Moy's 30 day M.A.P fatloss challenge and I'll be keeping a day by day, blow by blow account of the whole thing"

That's what I was told to start with. I have just signed up for this challenge because I need to try something different. A good friend of mine pointed me to Dax Moy's website earlier this year. I downloaded a copy of The Elimination Diet and gave it a shot for 30 days. In that 30 days I lost 8lbs. I have managed to keep 6 of those 8lbs off since April when I did the diet.

Beyond that, I've been unsuccessful at dropping the fat from my body for almost a year. It's time for something different and I'm positive that this something different will do the trick. So here I am in all my hoop-jumping glory. Baring my fat for the world to see. I will be posting daily to update my progress. The challenge begins June 7th!