Still learning.

I have been actively trying to lose weight since 2005.  I have tried a few fad diets, weight watchers, etc.  I have lost the same 25 lbs and regained them time and time again.  It wasn't until this year that the light clicked on for me.  I cannot lose the weight and keep it off if I continue to eat food that is bad for me.

I truly believed that if I just exercised enough, I could eat whatever I wanted.  Not true.  Even at the height of marathon training, I did not lose a pound.  As soon as I stopped running 30+ miles a week, teaching 3 jazz classes a week and not doing my 3 strength training days a week, I started to gain.  I was exhausted.

So now, here I am.  7lbs heavier than what I was on January 1 of this year.  I have learned alot from Dax Moy, Tosca Reno and Jillian Michaels.  I know now that I have to stop eating food that isn't food.  It's really my Achilles heel in it all, because I do love to exercise.

So here it stops.  I draw the line.  I am NOT going to weigh 200lbs ever again.  I am currently 197 lbs and not ok with it.  In fact I'm depressed and saddened that I am where I am. This is my rock bottom.